Helped

Yesterday when I was going back home

It was an uphill road when my motorcycle stopped working in the middle of the climb

I tried to turn on the machine again but it didn't work

Lucky me, a Gojek driver behind me helped me push the motorcycle up until the flat road

He tried to fix my motorcycle

Thinking it was because of the fuel that is empty but it was not

Another Gojek driver came and helped

He said it was because of the busi that's dirty or broken

He needed busi key to fix it but he didn't have it

I called Pa Ade, the logistic man, asking him to come to help me

He came, bringing that busi key

And fix my motorcycle

Finally, the machine can be turned on again

The gojek men went back after all the problems were fixed

I was grateful for yesterday

I am not capable of machine things, 

But when I need help, there were people who helped

I ever had several problems with motorcycle in the middle of the road back then

But, although I have no clue at all about machinery, 

There were always people who helped me fixing the situation

I thanked them very much

Before going home, I went to Dunkin Donut, buying some for family

Buying food home, a thing used to do but no more lately

Mbanking was error when I tried to top up Shopeepay and Gopay

There should be discount if I used them, but the ammount of money there wasn't enough

I tried to top up using Mbanking but it was error

Finally i bought them without discount

I was angry that time, my bad.. 

But after going home, seeing my  sister was happily drinking the iced chocolate

My mom ate the durian donut, her favourite

(I didn't remember buying durian tho, as long as I remember, they said durian ones were out of stock) 

She liked it, took some photographs of the donuts and iced  chocolate

We remember father, how we used to ate together at Dunkin Donuts besides my Junior High School building after school.. 

It's father who introduced us to the iced chocolate here

I remembered very well he said "this is delicious! I ordered pure chocolate, don't use milk! Pure chocolate is more delicious! "

He kept saying that every time we ordered that drink

And seeing my mother and sister enjoying these Dunkins kinda made me happy

A happiness that I haven't felt again for so long... 

I used to buy food home occasionally, or going to mall to have a meal and window shopping with them

Since covid, I rarely do all those

If I may be honest, really honest, the condition is not good, it actually never is

But let little things happened yesterday bright a little light... 

As a remembrance that we all survived so far... 

I Have Too Much on My Plate

Men are moved by two levers only: fear and self interest. - Napoleon Bonaparte

I think I have too much on my plate

Tired and overwhelmed

Until end of November is critical time

Move from one deadline to another

Running with time in these passing weeks

From feeling offended till don't care anymore

No room to grouch because too many things to catch up

Things need to be finished well, that's it

Good things and wisdom are so easy to say

But to keep doing it is another story

'I am learning, I am learning, ' I keep saying to myself

As encouragement to encounter these all

There is no way out but to run until the finish line

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A weird thing just happened

I'm doing a work.. I took a rest a bit by writing this post

And when I get back at my work, I found out the paper I'm working on is wet

It's damaged I can't use it anymore

And when I look on the surroundings, there is no splash of water

On the table on the floor, all are dry

I have to print the whole paper again, for hust these two little pieces

It adds things to do for tomorrow already busy morning

I know myself.. When things got me really really stressful

Instead of grumbling, here I am laughing

I Have a Lot on My Plate

I am so busy lately

But i am not even complaining

Many new knowledge I learn

New experiences I get

I have never really felt so lively in working before

I am also learning to declutter my mind

Occupy it with prominent ones

I start re-reading Bible again

Focusing on things I can control

Letting go the uncontrollable ones

I am so busy lately

But i am not even complaining

...But being really grateful instead