Cheering Soul

  Today’s the second time I’ve gone home via a rat run instead of the usual soul-crushing traffic from hell. No traffic, no stress—me happy! So proud to have found this route. Lately, I ride home listening to YouTube on my wireless earphones. I feel productive, like killing two birds with one stone.  Anyway.  I've just realized, I am still the same person I used to be, just in different situation and surrounding. I realized and understood why I acted and thought that way back then. I don't change. The monster is still alive inside of me. Sleeping. Hibernating. Once the season ends, it will awake again. Welcoming back the old me, one which I surpressed and tried hard to diminish for long. It was a roller coaster of mind these days. I can turn from being unmotivated to happy and excited. And the other way around. One that motivated me lately was an exciting book I've just finished reading: Material World by Ed Conway. It made me wanna live long, to see where the world is go...