Monday, December 7, 2015

Early Resume of 2015

It's the time of the year again.., December... And one favorite moment of the year, Christmas Day.
Many things happened this year, both ups and downs, but overall I am grateful for 2015 and everything inside.

I am so grateful for some choices I made up that had brought me new visions, showing how lost I was and the right path I should walk on. And it's something serious, something should be implanted deeply in me.

I lost my father and a friend this year. It was a great loss and saddened me so much but through these, I have precious things to learn. I am grateful to have a chance to know them in my life. And I learn to state in my mind that it's not my will, but thine, be done.

I realized 2 opposites things: 
First, I am precious and worthy. I had times in my life, in my teenage years to be exact, that I hated being alive so much, I thought my birth was a greatest mistake ever, I wished my life end, I had many doubts and guilts haunted me. But now I realized, as long as I'm alive, He has something to do with my life.

The opposite thing is, eventhough I am precious, I am nobody. Without Him, I am nothing. And I am not special. I should stop being egoistic and self-centered but care to other people.

It's very easy for me to be envious of my same-aged friends' lifes but I state in my mind, to be grateful no matter what, 

State in my mind as well that it's Not 'What shall I have?' but 'What can I do for you?'
I want to serve Him the right way.

And below are verses taken from Matthew 6, Matthew 6:33 is my base to live my life...

25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.

I thank God for 2015. Really this year is something :)

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